A Discussion with Laura Huxley
This telephone discussion between Rick Doblin and Laura Huxley took place March 12, 1994.
Laura's conference was scheduled to begin April 28 in Los Angeles.
RD: What inspired you to organize your upcoming conference?
LH: The main inspiration is that this is a one and only opportunity to
unite Aldous's birth centennial with Children: Our Ultimate Investment.
Celebrating Aldous with children is a natural merging.He dedicated much of
his writing to making us aware of our choices and our creative capacities.
Yet, the creative capacity of children is being stifled. This event is a
unique moment in time, not just because of the fact of only ONE birth
centennial, but also because of the extraordinary group of pioneers and
leaders who have responded to this call with enthusiasm.
RD: What do you hope the conference will accomplish?
LH: I hope that people become more aware of Aldous's suggestions and
advice. More than anything, that they become more aware of the importance
that each one of us has in the making of the whole society. We think that
we are not important because society is so overpowering. If we remember
that while we may not do great things, great revolutions, we can do small
things with great love. This is the advice of Mother Theresa. Each one of
us can become more conscious, more clear about what society is and what it
can be. If people read Island, they will find a lot of ideas on how to
live. Of course, they cannot all be actualized but if we do a little bit,
a little bit goes a long way.
RD: Brother David Steindl-Rast also talks about the sense that we should
be grateful just for the breath and for the little things that we can
LH: Yes, and too often we stifle our natural will to live and to love.
RD: I think that some of the people who may read this interview in the
newsletter, particularly some of the younger people, might not have read
anything by Aldous. What would you recommend them to read first?
LH: I definitely recommend that they read Island, because that is Aldous
legacy. That way they can see a little of all of the great panorama that
covers his life. Jean Houston, who will speak at the conference, has done
a lot of work with Aldous books. She has applied his philosophy in her
work. During the conference, Ram Dass will take the two books by Aldous
that are opposite to each other, Brave New World and Island, and make the
comparison. Then, he will ask which way do we want to go? We are already
into Brave New World. Do we want to go more into Island, or maybe there is
still another possibility? Its fascinating to think about a discussion
like that. There is the example in Brave New World, where the babies about
7 or 8 months old are brought into a room where there are roses and books.
They see the colored things and eagerly go toward them but in the moment
in which they are just about to touch them, they receive an electric
shock. That cures them for good from books. In Island, there is the other
example. When the mother is breast feeding the baby, and it is just
heaven, the most wonderful time of its life when its so near the mother
and being breast fed, at this moment she introduces the baby to the other
members of the family or the household, even an animal, whatever, she
makes the introduction in that moment . As the baby is touched by this
person the mother says good, good, good. That is the way to introduce a
baby to the world.
RD: During the sixties, people were explicitly trying to recreate the
world like the society in Island. People were using psychedelics for
inspiration and were dropping out of excess materialism and going back to
LH: It started then, and then it stopped.
RD: What do you think made it stop?
LH: Well, the abuse, and the confusion of issues. You cant drop out, you
have to stay in and very much so. Aldous wrote in Island about how the
young people who, in a ritual of puberty, are taken into the mountains and
given the moshka medicine. Their teacher asks, will you merely enjoy this
experience as you would enjoy an evening at a show and then go back to
business as usual? The answer is not in the wonder of the day, the answer
is finding value and wonder in everyday acts.
RD: Do you think that the idea of rites of passage for dying with moksha
medicine, is that something that you think we should try to bring into our
LH: Well I only assisted two dying persons with LSD, Aldous and another
person. [Editors note: Aldous asked Laura to inject him with LSD as he lay
dying. See This Timeless Moment by Laura Huxley. For Aldous it was very
good, for the other person it wasn't. The point is it needs to be studied
in the proper way. Aldous thought that LSD may be used with terminal
patients, and he was in contact with Dr. Kast in Chicago, who was doing
[LSD sessions] with terminally ill patients.
RD: FDA-approved MDMA research will first look at its safety in normal,
healthy people but then were going to start a study with terminally ill
LH: You have done beautifully, convincing the most impossible people that
everything can be used in two ways, even water. You can die if you drink
too much water but you cannot live without it. It's really difficult,
because the responsibility comes back to each one of us, again and again
for the way we do things, as with sex and love. Aldous always tried to
offer some ideas, either in a novel form or in a play form, about the
situation of the human race, about making us realize we have some choice.
Our Ultimate Investment does exactly the same thing, by focusing on being
conscious that children and parents will be happier and healthier if
treated well. Even before they're born, before conception. The idea is
that if we are loved even before being conceived, then the family is
prepared for conception, in grateful and loving ways.
RD: You mentioned giving people a choice: what do think about
LH: Well, if you follow the idea of the conference, the first thing to do
if you conceive a child is to be conscious that you are doing one of the
most important things that the human being can do. You prepare for
conception for two years. You prepare your body and your mind, and you
care about the relationship between you and your partner. When you do
that, the question of abortion doesn't arise because youre not going to
abort the child for which you've prepared for so long. In other cases, of
course, that is an absolutely personal thing, nobody can tell anybody what
RD: Its reassuring for me to learn that you value the individual nature of
LH: Oh, yes. It seems to me that conception should be a very conscious
act. If it happens to be different, if some circumstances arise by which
suddenly you find yourself pregnant, then the decision can only be made by
yourself. It is depressing to think that it has become a political
RD: You helped Aldous to die in such a conscious way, in an altered state,
are there ways you suggest to help the actual process of birth?
LH: Well, the actual process of birth has already been helped for about
ten million years. Currently, the kind of help that is offered by people
in the medical profession is too often very disrespectful and damaging.
The whole business of birth has been made into some kind of a disease. The
woman arrives in the hospital to have a baby and the first thing is that
she is put in a wheel chair as though she were sick. The whole process can
be helped a great deal by leaving it as it is. Let it be, let it be, as
evolution has prepared for many, many millions of years. Leave the father
and mother to do what is necessary, with the help of midwives who are
doing wonderful work. Birth now has become a medical business. There are
very few births now on Saturdays and Sundays because its not very
convenient for the doctor. When the baby isn't ready to be born during the
weekdays, sometimes it is obliged to do so. The percentage of cesareans
has gone up from 3 or 4 percent to 22, 23, 24 percent.
RD: After the conference do you have other plans for Our Ultimate
LH: Yes I do. I want to keep on with two basic projects. One is Project
Caressing, which is the intergenerational project where senior citizens
hold and caress babies. Very often people at the two ends of life are
solitary and alone. The baby is sometimes left a long time in a crib with
maybe only the television, certainly the most cruel of all babysitters.
Old people feel alone, too. So if the two can be matched, the loneliness
can melt into tenderness. That is one project. I would like to have a
caressing room every few blocks in every metropolis. The other project is
Prelude to Conception, to make young people aware of the responsibilities
of having a baby. The teenager takes care of a toddler when it begins, at
two years old, to say no, no, no. At this demanding time in the life of
the baby, the teenager will take care of this toddler, or two or three
toddlers, every week. And also get credit for this in their schools. I had
this project one summer, and each teenager became very, very wise and
said, "No, I'm not going to have a baby yet, until I'm 25 or 30 or
35." There are many people now who have babies later in life.
They are better parents because they've already gone through part of their
own personal growth, for example with their own career. I know several
parents about 40. They take such wonderful care of the child because they
feel more privileged in being parents.
RD: How are you going to try to go about bringing these projects into
LH: Ah, the practical side, that is very difficult. So far, I have
financed everything personally, I will have to have a little more help
from corporations for Project Caressing. For Prelude to Conception, I
would like to put it in high schools. So, there needs to be a recognition
of these efforts on the part of the schools. It is a practical recognition
because so many kids have kids. That is most often a painful thing because
theyre not prepared, the babies dont fare as well. Very often they need
much more care, and the care is not available. I did try several years ago
and did not succeed to involve the unified school district.
RD: So youll first try to do these things in the Los Angeles area?
LH: Oh, I'll do it anywhere where it's possible, I dont care where, but
generally in the big cities. In the small cities, these prob-lems are a
little bit better taken care of, I understand.
RD: Theres already something like Project Caressing with crack babies in
which hospitals arrange for senior citizen volunteers to hold the
LH: It's a natural thing, its not a brilliant idea. I can assure you that
the baboons about two million years ago already did that. So we cannot
take any credit.
RD: Sometimes if wed just be as smart as animals, wed be doing better.
LH: We are too smart in certain things and not smart enough in others.
RD: It must have been an enormous undertaking to put this conference
LH: I'll say, yes. I have a wonderful coordinator, Patricia Gaul, without
whom I could not have done it. In any case, I would not miss the
opportunity to work on an event which is unique in quality and time. The
privilege and the responsibility are bigger than myself but thats okay. I
always had the tendency to attempt things bigger than myself it is risky,
but it gives deeper and tastier fragrance to life.
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